So sad...

I feel like shit. I barely slept a wink last night. Tossing and turning and thinking and worrying.
Yesterday afternoon Noah called home from diving to tell me that a friend of ours daughter had died. I didn't even believe her at first. The news had come straight from her friend, the girls youngest sister. I am in shock. This girl was a retired gymnast from our club. Actually she was the first person Noah and I drove to Red Deer to watch compete when Noah first started in competitive gymnastics so many years ago.
She was just 18 years old. She just graduated high school. Her mom showed me the grad photos of her and her boyfriend. So cute and in love. Oh...she was so young. So much life ahead to live. Why? Why her? Why anyone? Why so young?
I just feel so, so sad.
I feel heart-wrenching pain for my friend, her mother - who must be going insane right now.
Her poor little sisters. Her dad, her friends....
I just want to hug my kids and never let them out of my sight. Life is too short as it is. A tragedy like this is so hard to handle, but they do remind us to live each day like it could be your last.
Oh man...I just don't know....